Saturday would’ve been Grace’s 67th birthday, so I’m not especially surprised that I felt quite sad. Everything seemed off all day; Grace always wanted me to make her favorite dish, Beef Stroganoff, for dinner, with a cheesecake for dessert. And perhaps in the future, along with burning a candle for her all day, I may prepare those things in her memory; right now the grief is still too intense, so I let Jae cook dinner after she returned from the local “No Kings” protest. While she was gone, I was here alone and decided to soak in the hot tub with a strong drink, and listen to Queen’s Greatest Hits, which Grace gave me for my birthday in 1999 (if memory serves). The album includes “You’re My Best Friend”, which as I mentioned last year was my ringtone for her, but it also includes “Who Wants To Live Forever?” which has for almost 40 years always made me cry, even long before my best friend passed from this plane into whatever comes next. I really am mostly doing better now; I can even get through most days without crying as long as I stay busy (which isn’t hard). But occasions like this are too painful to manage without grief, and I’ve never been any good at holding in the tears when they’re provoked this intensely.
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Diary #781
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