As you can see, my fountain is finally working! Though we got her connected to the hot water back in June, there were a number of cracks from years of improper storage, which resulted in water spraying out of her back every time I turned the valve on. But last month Jae got most of them fixed (there is one left, but it’s barely a drip), so when I noted the water level was low last week, I went ahead and used the fountain to add some nice hot water to the tub. There’s also a small leak where the tube exists her jar, which results in a crooked stream if I increase the flow rate above what you see. But that will be fixed eventually, and it sure was nice to be able to top off the tub without having to haul out the hose and sharply drop the tub’s water temperature!
Archive for November, 2023
Annex 125
Posted in Diary, tagged Sunset on November 10, 2023| 1 Comment »
Throwback Thursday 1970
Posted in History, Miscellaneous, Perception, Philosophy, Tyranny, tagged adolescence, agency denial, blogging, Count the Idiocies, politicians, propaganda, See How Well It Works?, Throwback Thursday, With Folded Hands on November 9, 2023| Leave a Comment »
Neither [journalists]…nor politicians nor rich people get to decide what any given individual thinks is worth risking his life for; the only person who gets to decide that is the individual himself.
– “With Folded Hands (#445)”
The capacity of politicians to pretend that being proven wrong actually means they were right is a kind of nauseating marvel.
– “Count the Idiocies”
Humans don’t need a government certificate to be sexual beings, and…sex is…not some pretty fairy-tale rainbow magic that mystically appears in a burst of pastel hearts when two people of the “correct” age fall in love. – “Infantilization”
There is not and in fact cannot be any such thing as “legitimate” authority, whether that authority is chosen by elections, lots, birth, examining goat entrails, or pulling swords out of lakes. – “Illegitimate”
Posturing politicians…claim to be the champions of “the people”, but in actuality those “people” are no more than a source of power to them, as interchangeable, expendable and disposable as lumps of coal thrown into a furnace.
– “The Grand Illusion” 
In the News (#1387)
Posted in Current Events, Miscellaneous, News, Tyranny, tagged adolescence, bogus studies, California, cops, crypto-moralism, Don't Call It Trafficking, Florida, Georgia, Missouri, No Escape, Pennsylvania, Permanent Record, porn, prisons, rape, sex rays, slavery, teachers, The Truth About..., Thou Shalt Not, To Molest and Rape, Torture Chamber, Wyoming on November 8, 2023| Leave a Comment »
The reality is that healthy people do not pay for the privilege of stacking hay. – Wyoming Supreme Court
Crypto-moralists believe anything unpleasant must be “good for you”:
[Crypto-moralists] are [claiming health] benefits [for] cold showers…defined as bathing in water less than 60 degrees Fahrenheit…Dr. Majdoline Jayoushe [sez]…“When you’re in cold water, your brain is too busy focusing on making the unpleasant sensation go away rather than thinking about all the reasons you are unhappy or stressed”…[Bogus] studies [proclaim] that cold showers…help increase endorphins, boost metabolism, strengthen immune health, promote healthy weight loss, improve circulation, reduce inflammation and swelling, fight symptoms of depression…lessen aches and pains [and save your soul]…Some [even] claim that cold water can give you a beauty boost by tightening your pores and adding shine to your hair…[crypto-moralists] recommend taking a cold shower in the afternoon or evening, [when the]…body…is [craving sinful relaxation]…a 2016 study [claimed]…that people who took a cold shower for just 30 to 90 seconds for 90 days [cost their masters money by calling] in sick to work 29% less than people who [actually enjoyed their showers]…
Dr. Jayoushe’s “logic” is that of a cartoon character “curing” someone’s headache by hitting their foot with a giant mallet.
The Truth About “The Truth About…”
Just another of those nonexistent false rape accusations:
A man locked up nearly four years ago was acquitted of…rape from a June 2017 allegation…by a girl, 17 years old at the time, [whose] testimony fell apart under further interrogation…The defendant maintained his innocence throughout his incarceration, and [refus]ed to…plead guilty to a non-sex offense and get out of jail…[with] time served and…probation…[his] wife stuck with him through the trial and testified on his behalf…the accuser had gotten into a heated argument with Martines’ wife over ownership of a car…when her demands were met with refusal, the accuser threatened to go to police with unspecified allegations…Less than 24 hours later, she accused [the defendant] of raping her…[and] also [claimed he] had threatened to murder her whole family…
Your “leaders” refer to this as “correction”:
Gregory Rodriguez…[raped] more than 22 women…[locked in cages by the state of California] over the span of nearly a decade…The [typical and representative screw]…has [claimed the women all wanted to be raped on at least] 96…[occasions. Prison bureaucrats are wringing their hands and lugubriously moaning “]how could [this happen]…over so many years, without [his] getting caught?[” even though they create and maintain]…a system in which…vulnerable women [with absolutely no way to escape or even effectively report rapists]…are routinely preyed upon…and then threatened into silence. When women have reported abuse, they [nearly always] face…severe consequences, in[cluding] longer prison terms[, loss of the most basic human rights,] and further exposure to their assailants. [Screws routinely] protect…their colleagues and facilitate…their attacks…Rodriguez’s [depredations were known] as early as 2014…but instead of terminating him, [prison bureaucrats] punished the victim…[and encouraged Rodriguez] to commit dozens of additional…[rapes and] sexual assaults…more than 3,500 women [at a conservative estimate] are sexually abused by [screws] each year, and…[screws routinely] abuse…women in at least two-thirds of federal women’s prisons…
Don’t Call It Trafficking (#1363)
The entire “troubled teen” industry needs to be sued out of existence:
[Two men who] were subjected to severe forced labor and abusive conditions…as teens…on a youth [“treatment”] ranch in Powell, Wyoming, are suing the ranch and other businesses [who collaborate with it] in federal court. Andrew Lewis, of Texas, and Andrew Unruh, of California…“and others similarly situated were transported to Wyoming, often through legal kidnapping at the suggestion of (the ranch owners), and forced to work in unfathomable conditions while receiving little to no formal education, behavioral treatment or therapy”…Lewis and Unruh are asking…to now be paid for their labor, including $16.31 per hour…for the first 40 hours per week and $24.47 per hour for every hour beyond 40 per week. Their workdays allegedly [exceeded] 12…hours…They also are asking for compensatory damages for emotional distress for [being held] in…“squalid, restricted and threatening” conditions…. and repayment of the amounts their parents…paid to keep them at the ranch (between $6,000 and $9,000 per month, per teen)…[plus] interest…at 10% per year…
The government needs to be buried in lawsuits before this will stop:
Philadelphia has asked a judge to hold the state in contempt of court for failing to address a crisis of overcrowding inside the city’s juvenile jail — escalating a blame game that has continued for more than a year. The filing…included disturbing photos that showed [young people] sleeping on floors and benches in crowded, filthy rooms, where…lights are left on 24 hours a day, and access to bathrooms and showers is limited….about 211 young people [are locked into cages] licensed to hold 184…
A second teacher at a small Missouri high school has landed in hot water for supplementing her income…on OnlyFans…Megan Gaither…an English teacher and varsity cheerleading coach at St. Clair High School…was put on leave…“Teaching does not financially support a person…That’s why I did it”…Gaither…[has] more than $125,000 in student loans. Her total pay last year, including a coaching stipend, was about $47,500…Her colleague Brianna Coppage, a former freshman and sophomore English teacher at the school, recently resigned to devote all her time to porn after she was placed on leave when it was revealed she was running an OnlyFans page with her husband…
Cops should not be allowed anywhere near legal minors:
A Miami-Dade [cop named]…Daniel Ramos-Aviles [is] being held [without]…bond [for molesting at least three kids, one of them his own 6-year-old]…It was the second time in less than a week that a South Florida [cop was caught behaving exactly like cops tend to behave when alone]…with a minor…
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Diary #697
Posted in Diary, tagged holidays, imaginative fiction, nostalgia, Presents on November 7, 2023| Leave a Comment »
Though I love all the presents y’all send me, some of them just make more striking illustrations than others, which is why I’m featuring the Cthulhu chia pet rather than the assorted Halloween-themed placemats & table runner, or the complete set of The Dick Van Dyke Show, or the CD of Jean-Michel Jarre’s Oxymore, or the DVD of Tales That Witness Madness (an early ’70s horror anthology I’ve wanted to see since I first read about it in Famous Monsters of Filmland when I was a kid), or Black Sabbath (a Boris Karloff horror anthology which somehow scaped my notice until recently), or a collection of lesser Hammer films. Because even though all those things are awesome and I thank everyone who sent me gifts or cash for my birthday, a Cthulhu chia pet is just so absurd it would have been wrong of me to fail to show it to y’all.

Links #696
Posted in Current Events, Links, Miscellaneous, Music, Obituary, Tyranny, tagged acting, Alabama, artificial stupidity, cops, holidays, Kentucky, Missouri, Never Call the Cops, New York, Not for Any Reason Whatsoever, recipes, teachers, video on November 6, 2023| Leave a Comment »
You are going to die! – “Officer” Matthew McCulloch
There was no way I was not going to memorialize Richard Roundtree with this song. The links above it were provided by Mark Bennett, Jesse Walker, Franklin Harris, Phoenix Calida, and IncarcerNation (x3), in that order.
- Computer-assisted baking.
- Recipes from Aleister Crowley.
- R.I.P. Richard Roundtree and Richard Moll.
- Cop shoots up a grade-school Halloween party.
- No, not because your neighbor is a coach, either.
- Gang murders man while attempting to steal his car.
- If only there had been some sign of what this cop was like.
From the Archives
- This paper copsucks so hard, it even puts the word “rape” in scare quotes.
- Psychedelics are being destigmatized much more quickly than I expected.
- Sleeping with a cop is one of the most dangerous things a woman can do.
- And yet amateurs pretend that sex workers are the one who spread STIs.
- The “Facebook pimps” myth crossed with the “traffickers at stores” myth.
- Kristof is a vile excuse for a human being; naturally he went into politics.
- Apparently, I was destined to fight censors regardless of my career path.
- Unconstitutional bill failed in over a dozen states before passing in Utah.
- The government doesn’t care that its war on thought is unconstitutional.
- Hey, female cops; how’s that collaboration with the police state working?
- Cops, recipes, choo-choos, Jules Bass, Jerry Lee Lewis, and much more.
- Swedish criminalization harms sexworkers by creating a climate of fear.
- Calling a bunch of unrelated raids & arrests a “human trafficking sting”.
- The power to declare something “non-essential” is the power to ban it.
- Bird-brains still think realistic porn cartoons are the worst use for this.
- Nevada politicians accomplish by decree what they couldn’t do legally.
- PREA is feel-good pap while screws have absolute power over victims.
- The only “evidence” these racist sociopaths need is being Romanian.
- Nobody is giving expensive cannabis edibles to your spawn for free.
- Investigating sex workers’ disappearance is such a burden for cops.
- Sex workers need to keep suing prohibitionists whenever possible.
- “Porn addiction” is still being used as an excuse for violent crimes.
- While US cops favor VR porn games, Kazakh cops prefer LARPing.
- Brnovich does what an ethical judge would’ve done a year earlier.
- Politicians will criminalize virtually anything that can be defined.
- The “Violence Against Women Act” promotes its named subject.
- We are watching the beginning of the end of the War on Drugs.
- I could fill an entire tag with just cops who molest or rape kids.
- ACLU finally bothers to call for decriminalization, 45 years late.
- There has literally never been a case of drugged trick-or-treat.
- All too often, evil arrives cloaked in the mantle of expediency.
- Remember, Twitter claims this surveillance isn’t surveillance.
- “Vagina Egg” Paltrow joins noted bigot Jada Pinkett Smith.
- Vomit out the right buzzwords and you can censor at will.
- Watch what you say in front of your children, comrade.
- To cops, sex workers can only be victims or criminals.
- It wasn’t easy to get the steel for my bathhouse roof.
- Cops, horror, irony, Sean Connery, and much more.
- PayPal is becoming a major threat to civil liberties.
- A firsthand account of China’s torture of Uighurs.
- Cops, scary music, Mort Sahl, and much more.
- My two previous columns for Guy Fawkes Day.
- A permanent dumb “awareness raising” stunt.
- A fancy Halloween spread for my birthday!
- My two previous columns for Halloween.
- He wasn’t incorrect in this assumption.
- Oh look, it’s another “youth pastor”.
- Birthday presents are awesome.
- Prohibitionists call this “rescue”.
- The first leaf of my annex roof.
- Much more of this, please.
- A catalog of thanatopses.
- Rapist cop of the week.
- An unfinished shower.
- Birthday presents!
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Guy Fawkes Day 2023
Posted in Philosophy, Tyranny, tagged holidays, left-right myth, politicians on November 5, 2023| Leave a Comment »

Since I’ve already said plenty on this subject, this time I’m just going to leave you with a link to a collection of earlier essays, and a reminder that all government is rooted in the idea that might makes right.
In the News (#1386)
Posted in Current Events, Miscellaneous, News, Tyranny, tagged adolescence, agency denial, bogus studies, Buried Truth, Catholicism, Checklist, cops, cult of the child, drugs, fascism, Florida, homosexuality, If Men Were Angels, internet, Law of the Instrument, male prostitutes, Missouri, Nebraska, New Jersey, Poland, porn, prisons, propaganda, rescue industry, Schadenfreude, See No Evil, Shame Shame, Stalkers in Blue, Stop faking!, The Lesser of Two Evils, Torture Chamber, United Kingdom, West Virginia on November 4, 2023| Leave a Comment »
[Prison officials] do not give a shit about…medical care. Not one shit. – Deborah Ujevich
It’s heartening to see so many rescue industry profiteers exposed as the sociopaths they are:
The founder of the International House of Prayer of Kansas City, a [rescue industry] organization, is facing serious allegations of [sexual] misconduct…Mike Bickle has led the organization since its founding in 1999…three former IHOPKC leaders said the allegations…[were] “credible and long-standing”…they tried to bring the allegations…to Bickle…[but] “were repeatedly rebuffed by Mike Bickle and we were refused any sort of meeting…Instead, Mike used manipulating and intimidating tactics towards the victims to isolate them and discredit them”…For years, [IHOPKC] has come under criticism by ex-staffers and former followers who accuse it of being cult-like…In 2012, a park ranger found follower Bethany Deaton, 27, dead in the backseat of a minivan…just weeks after her wedding…a group of young people [had lived] together under the strict control of Bethany’s husband, Tyler Deaton. Most of the group, whose members…used sex as part of their religious experience, had come to Kansas City to be part of IHOPKC…
The government scheme to cut sex workers off from the healthcare system isn’t dead yet:
St. Joseph’s Health [in New Jersey is subjecting its]…Emergency Department staff members…[to] in[doctrination]…designed to detect [sex workers] and…facilitate the[ir] prosecution…[blah blah] tools to engage with victims…increasing…27.6 million people worldwide…Homeland Security…[fascist] partnership…raise awareness…survivor once trapped in trafficking…psychological control…training the emergency team…to identify…victims [us]ing [scientific criteria like a “feeling of sadness“]…
The Lesser of Two Evils (#1176)
Maybe the Church should delineate acceptable ways for clergy to meet their sexual needs:
A Catholic bishop in southern Poland has resigned after a sex worker passed out at a clandestine orgy allegedly hosted by one of his clergy. Grzegorz Kaszak, the bishop of Sosnowiec, had been under pressure…for several weeks after details of the all-male sex party were released to the press…[it] is alleged to have been held at the rectory of the Blessed Virgin Mary of the Angels church in Dabrowa Gornicza…at the end of August…a…sex worker fell unconscious under the influence of “psychotropic substances”, a[nd]…another man…rang the local ambulance service for help…
Picture what you’d think of as “sex trafficking”, then compare it to this:
A [Nebraska] teen [has been charged with] sex trafficking two teen girls…Cody Holum, 17, is charged as an adult…[for] threaten[ing] to share nude photos of…[a] 16-year-old [girl]…if she did not allow him to sexually assault her….despite telling him no, Holum came to her work and sexually assaulted her…[when cops rooted throug his computer, they] found conversations between Holum and a second [girl]…where he allegedly threatened to harm her if she did [not]…send him sexually explicit photos and videos of herself…
This shitty behavior is usually referred to by the idiotic term “sextortion” rather than the even more idiotic term “sex trafficking”.
Screws’ idea of prison health care is yelling “Stop faking!” at the sick and dying:
West Virginia…[politicians have] ban[ned]…any health care for incarcerated people that [screws and prison bureaucrats don’t] deem…“medically necessary”. The policy leaves it to state [Torturing Caged Humans] Commissioner Billy Marshall—a [lifelong pig]…who has said incarcerated people are lying when they allege inhumane treatment by the state—to define “medically necessary” and makes clear that…his de[cisions]…supersede guidance from [actual] health professionals…
The Internet Watch Foundation…has found thousands of [computer]-generated images which are…criminal under UK law[, as are even the most cartoony porn cartoons if a cop decides they depict characters who are “children” within the fictive universe of the cartoon, regardless of what the creator says about these wholly-fictional characters. Computers are]…being used to produce new images of real victims, de-age celebrities and unclothe children in ordinary photos to depict them in abuse scenarios…In a new study of a single dark web forum, the IWF found 2,978 [computer-]generated [porn cartoons]…
Cops are sexual predators who often specifically target traumatized women:
A [Florida cop] has been arrested [for stalking, propositioning, and sending dick pics to]…a 17-year-old girl he met while responding to a domestic violence call…Jemiah Thomas…[talked the girl out of her] phone number…and [bombarded her with sexual messages]…In one message, Thomas told her he could be her “personal sheriff that handcuff you from time to time”…the girl…[told her] father[, who then reported]…Thomas…[and another cop caught him by fantasy role-play]ing as the [girl]…
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Still Ahead
Posted in Diary, tagged Grace, Oklahoma, pragmatism, Presents, Washington (state) on November 3, 2023| Leave a Comment »
In the autumn of 2014, I asked my readers for help in buying a new car; I was moving to Seattle and there was no way the old farm truck I’d driven for years could be depended upon to go so far. Altogether, y’all raised about $3000, and I found a 2003 Hyundai for only $3300 because an insurance company had totaled it due to body damage from a severe hailstorm. That car took me hither and yon for almost a year, until in October 2015 a careless person came shooting across several lanes of traffic during a rainstorm and directly into my path. Fortunately, my car’s book value was $5000, so that’s what the insurance company paid me; even after spending $3000 on another used car, that left me $1700 ahead from where I had started (not counting tag fees and the like, because I think of those as operating expenses).
That burgundy 2000 Honda Accord was one of the best cars I ever owned, and when in May 2019 I was told the transmission was shot and would cost about twice what the car was worth to replace, I sold it on Craigslist as a “mechanic’s special” for $400 and bought another escort’s unwanted 2002 Saturn for $1000, which still left me with $1100 of the money my readers had given me in 2014. The Saturn carried me around dependably until September 12th of this year, when it was rear-ended on the highway and completely totaled. It took the insurance company a month to pay me a little over $2400 for it, then we had to find a suitable replacement for a similar amount of money, no easy feat nowadays when even older used cars are getting snatched up practically as soon as they’re posted online for sums the equivalent could never have commanded even 8 years ago (especially since I no longer live in Seattle and can’t tell most owners “I’ll be there in an hour”).
But Grace’s mojo has never failed me, though this time it was accompanied by far more grumbling than usual; on Wednesday I brought home this 1994 Honda Accord, which despite its age was a good deal: it was really clean, obviously garage-kept and babied, fully loaded, with everything working and sold to me by its original owner, practically the stereotypical “little old lady from Pasadena”, whose father had given it to her as a gift brand-new. So nine years after that original request for help, I’m still $1000 ahead on my car fund; it’s kind of amazing that not only have my loyal and generous readers kept me in reliable transportation for nearly a decade, but also with a good head start on repairing or replacing this one when it, too, succumbs to entropy or Fate. 
Teenage Throwback Thursday
Posted in Miscellaneous, Perception, Philosophy, The Dark Side, tagged bad customers, blogging, Day of the Dead, fantasy, holidays, hysteria, imaginative fiction, Mexico, psychology, sex work is work, Thanatopsis, Throwback Thursday on November 2, 2023| Leave a Comment »
The lurid, sensationalized tragedy porn narratives that make up the body of “sex trafficking” mythology are nothing more than Gothic horror tales that opportunists pretend are real. – “Unreal Horrors”
Every…sex-work[er]…has had clients fall for her; it’s a natural outgrowth of a situation in which a lonely man spends a lot of time in the company of a beautiful, alluring woman who only shows him her best side. – “Out of Bounds”
You are going to die. Soon. And there is absolutely nothing you can do about it. – “Thanatopsis”
Sex and death are but two sides of the same coin: the former is the door through which we enter the world, and the latter the door through which we leave it. – “Eros and Thanatos”
That experience of being a stranger in one’s own community, of being treated like a living oracle, like a weird visitor back from the underworld with divine wisdom to share…that, I think, is the experience which defines the old.
– “Let There Be Dark”
Day of the Dead 2023
Posted in Holidays, Philosophy, tagged Day of the Dead, holidays, paganism on November 1, 2023| Leave a Comment »
Though all things must pass, none are so ephemeral as those good times with good friends that, in retrospect, seem almost magical.
– “Day of the Dead 2022”
“Every single thing in the Cosmos is mortal, and will pass away in its time. [Organisms and empires alike] rise, thrive, decline, and fall, to be replaced by younger ones which then decline and fall in their time…crumbling into dust and passing first into memory, then legend, and eventually beyond the horizon of sentient knowledge.”






